I know I shouldn’t feel this way since everyone is on their own journey, but damn, sometimes it is hard not to. Getting married later in life, not starting a family earlier, not staying on one path in my career, starting over and rebuilding many times. I have learned a lot of lessons, and honestly, wouldn’t trade my life and experiences for others – even if they look successful on the outside – but maybe it is youngest child crap that makes me wonder what life would look like if I didn’t or did X, Y, or Z.

Shoulda, woulda, coulda’s can make us go down some rabbit holes and if we aren’t careful, stay there and not see how our choices brought us some amazing things right in front of us. Does money buy happiness? No, but is sure can buy less stress and a hot tub – I really want a hot tub…. one day!

The one thing I wish I could have really worked on before my 40’s is not giving a shit what other people think. Not caring if they agree with my decisions, knowing I do good work – even if they want to change the facts. It is true you are the only one who can let other’s make you feel like shit, but damn, when all you have wanted was acceptance and you got a whole lot of judgement instead, it is a fight to shake that off.

Many people have kids early so they are still young and spry to travel and do what they want. I guess I just did it in reverse, while knowing I can still do all that I have done and want to do, some wisdom actually does come with age. Who knew?!

Now I just have to figure out what I want to be when I grow up.