I had to have our social worker spell it out to me that we were approved. She looked at me like I was crazy when I asked if there were any reason she saw we wouldn’t be approved. If I look at us objectively, there is no question we would be approved. When I look at us with my insecurities, I needed the reassurance of it spelled out. “I am telling you how amazing you are. You are approved!” She said, miming stamping ‘APPROVED’ on papers. Sometimes your girl (and her monkey brain) is ridiculous haha.

Now we wait for the paperwork to be complete so we can begin applying for grants… ok, let’s be real… so I can start haha.

I have a spreadsheet started with grants to go for, and tabs upon tabs open with search results of how to afford an adoption. We made a GoFundMe, and I need to share it more, but man, I HATE asking for help. AND I know I have to. We need the help, because we do not have $75K sitting around ready to put toward this dream (if you do, I am SO impressed… and jealous haha). I will do whatever I need to do to make this dream a reality. I have so many kids in my life I love and would be lost without, and I also want a peanut who only wants me and have that drive me nuts at times, but have that fill me with joy ALL the time. My lordt, I am tearing up just writing this. Girl, get it together!

I have our look books ordered (finished it quickly, see my previous post “Holy Crap…”), our first baby gift – a sweet moose warmy, from a sweet family member – waiting for its owner, and two eager people waiting to be mama and dada.

Please God, Universe, Spirit Guides, past family and friends, and anyone else we can pray too, please, let the sweet soul who is meant to be our baby find us soon.