A nobody, that is who. To be honest, I don’t expect anyone to read this. I am finding I just need a place to throw down my thoughts, get them out of my brain, and try and lesson the overwhelm with everything we have coming at us.

I am a 45 year old woman, trying to start a family, balance numerous jobs to pay the bills, pay off debt, and afford the adoption fees. Dealing with what needs to be done at home. The rugs need to be washed. The blankets on the couches need to be de-haired (three dogs, anyone?). Curtains needs to be taken down to wash, when am I going to get to the fireplace upgrade I have wanted to do since we moved in? Need to hang the art in the bedroom. Shelves need to bought and hung in the guest room for my lego obsession. What color should I repaint the kitchen cabinets? Crap, need to patch another hole in the wall where the Berner took out her anxiety (annoying, but my goodness she is the sweetest, cutest, love). Move out the craft stuff and organize what we hope will be the nursery. Oh yeah, need to do some testing on the main shower to see where the leak is to limit the time needing to pay a plumber. Not to mention all the things I need to do for my side jobs. But first, figure out the top needs and what we can get situated for our home visit coming up to finish our home study for the adoption.

Decision fatigue is real, and when having life fatigue, it is… well… a lot. But, you know that. We are all dealing with it on some level. We all have so much coming at us, the constant barrage of news every where you turn, people able to contact you at the drop of a hat, needing to be available immediately, etc.

So, this will be my space to throw what is in my head out. Sometimes venting, sometimes looking at the silver lining, sometimes celebrating. Just how life is. Maybe this space will be a place where you see you aren’t alone in some areas of life or thoughts and feelings. Or maybe it enables you to see “damn, at least I have my shit together better than this lady” and “did this chick pay attention in English to learn any grammar?” Either way, welcome!